It’s an ongoing struggle for me. I get on someone’s wagon thinking it will take me to the golden valley. I spend all my sense of worth, well-being and happiness for the fare.

The band wagon crashed, leaving me in the poverty of despair.

I have allowed myself to become dependent on circumstances beyond my control. I began to have expectations of how the world/cosmos will favor me.

My body contracts in pain from my small fearful “false self”. How am I to recover?

As I quiet myself for a few seconds, I remember that the external world is not responsible for my well-being.

I step back from my “false self” and dive deep for the divine within.  I am quiet myself for longer periods. I hear the small divine voice.

The divine voice says, “step towards me.”

“My “false self” rebels.

I move to the voice with painful steps, the voice becomes stronger.

I hear loving reassurance, I to experience this love.

I realize I really don’t understand. I don’t need to.

I just experience love.